The Holidays are almost here. It's still hard to get into the spirit of things. It just does feel like Christmas yet. Even though I've got Lights up out side That William want's on 24-7 and a Tree in the living room that has to stay on
24-7 too.He likes those lights.All the Different colors and the ones that blink. He knows that something is different and he likes it.
I even tried to snap myself into the Happy Elf mode by sending out a few Christmas cards to the Family and some friends. William added the stickers and wanted to color on a few of them. Oops ! You would have thought that would have got me going.. NOPE !
I even went to Williams school yesterday and took a few snap shots of there Christmas Art. But still no..
I've just lost that Christmas Spirit and I haven't seen how I can get it back. I do know what Christmas stands for . It's the gift of receiving and not giving. Any Christian can tell you what we have already been given. . . I guess it's the fact that I cant give to others this year. That breaks my heart. But with the ways things are right now Its hard to even sacrifice that 5$ for a small gift. I've always been that person that gives unselfishly to others and this year I can't.. William has a couple of nice things. We got him that V-Tech smiles game system and one game, I found the Rosie from Thomas the train he loves & a travel aqua doodle . Not the usual big spending this year but.. it's something. Better then no Gifts at all. It's defiantly the Charlie Brown Christmas . It could be 10 x's worse.We could have no house, no car , nothing.I guess I should be Grateful to have those. Which I am 100%. Ya know.. I'm a firm believer that things happen for a reason. Maybe all this turmoil that the USA are experiencing and the hard times we are all having to go threw is just that man upstairs way of showing us what we should be grateful for. He sacrificed and now .. So are we.. ... I think i just found my Spirit....