The Holidays are almost here. It's still hard to get into the spirit of things. It just does feel like Christmas yet. Even though I've got Lights up out side That William want's on 24-7 and a Tree in the living room that has to stay on
24-7 too.He likes those lights.All the Different colors and the ones that blink. He knows that something is different and he likes it.
I even tried to snap myself into the Happy Elf mode by sending out a few Christmas cards to the Family and some friends. William added the stickers and wanted to color on a few of them. Oops ! You would have thought that would have got me going.. NOPE !
I even went to Williams school yesterday and took a few snap shots of there Christmas Art. But still no..
I've just lost that Christmas Spirit and I haven't seen how I can get it back. I do know what Christmas stands for . It's the gift of receiving and not giving. Any Christian can tell you what we have already been given. . . I guess it's the fact that I cant give to others this year. That breaks my heart. But with the ways things are right now Its hard to even sacrifice that 5$ for a small gift. I've always been that person that gives unselfishly to others and this year I can't.. William has a couple of nice things. We got him that V-Tech smiles game system and one game, I found the Rosie from Thomas the train he loves & a travel aqua doodle . Not the usual big spending this year but.. it's something. Better then no Gifts at all. It's defiantly the Charlie Brown Christmas . It could be 10 x's worse.We could have no house, no car , nothing.I guess I should be Grateful to have those. Which I am 100%. Ya know.. I'm a firm believer that things happen for a reason. Maybe all this turmoil that the USA are experiencing and the hard times we are all having to go threw is just that man upstairs way of showing us what we should be grateful for. He sacrificed and now .. So are we.. ... I think i just found my Spirit....
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I hope you have indeed found your "Christmas Spirit". God knows that, even when the money is good and you can give freely, having an autistic child can be so sapping on a parent that Christmas becomes more of a taxation upon those of us with autistic kids, than most normal days are.
I can fully relate with you. I always loved giving gifts on Christmas, and this year is perhaps the hardest Christmas we have ever had financially. They have all been hard, but this year, my children will receive more gifts from people they have never met, than from their own family.
This is a very hard cross for me to bear, but, I'm not being given much choice in the matter. Its that or the kids get the 2 gifts we bought for each of them. It doesn't make things easier when your anniversary is in the same month. Ours was yesterday. Thirteen years! We got each other cards, and as a gift to each other, neither one would let the other cook, or clean up the dishes afterwards. So I went and grabbed dinner from McDonalds, and took it home to my wife and kids. And we watched a movie together. That was our anniversary. Normally, we go all out....get a sitter, go out to an, (at least semi-fancy), place to eat. Maybe grab a movie, or go dancing, or something, just for the two of us. This year, we both decided to sacrifice our gifts that we would have normally gotten each other, so we could afford to get more than one gift for each of the kids.
We both feel after 13 years of marriage, this is something our marriage can survive, lol.
I find it interesting that your child like Thomas the tank engine, as our child does as well. He has every one of the trains, we got him Harold the Helicopter a while back, but he doesnt really care about him, just the ones that run on the tracks.
He line em up, and say all their names, and have full blown conversations with them. And he doesnt like to share em with anyone, but he wants everyone to know about them and see them.
Anyways, back to topic...
On a final note, we have an opportunity to give our children another gift, one that doesn't cost money. If your son is like mine, he may not get the full effect of the message, but he should be able to grasp the gist of it.
That gift is this.
No matter how little we have, no matter how hard we struggle, we are still a family. We still love each other, and were still together. While we cant get the things for them that they want, its NOT because we dont want to, (because we do want them to be happy with their gifts), its only because we cant for now. For now, hopefully, things will get better really soon, and we can make up for it on their birthday, or around tax time, but no matter what, were gonna keep trying to make their lives better. Because thats what families are supposed to do.
Keep smiling, and have a very merry Christmas!!!!
Nachtus01 Thank you very much.. You always find nice people out there that really understand.. thank you..
I'm obviously WAY behind in my blog reading, but I wanted to respond to this anyway. If you've read my blog lately (I think you might have replied to a post, actually), you'll know you're not alone. Since my husband lost his job in September, my stepson was the ONLY one we shopped for this year. Things will get better eventually... in the meantime, we all just focus on what's really important. :o)
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